Tuesday, 30 June 2026

BIRDS :: Take One

 

 

Brand new track up on the Bandcamps again today. 

Based around a couple of field recordings of the dawn chorus, with a few carefully chosen acoustic instruments to keep that fresh early morning "live" feeling. The dawn chorus where I live has a richness and intensity like black strong coffee. In the summer, there are often as many as 20, 25 different species of birds audible from my back garden. And then there is the rookery just down the road which is well-established and home to maybe upwards of 200+ birds. It's a far cry from the city centre where I used to live.

On this track, I started with two early morning recordings of birdsong during the dawn chorus. To this I added synths and strings, acoustic guitar, kalimba and flute. All played by me. There is no AI on this recording. It's all me blowing and plucking and strumming and playing synths and literally waving a microphone at the trees

The image is the earliest I could find of the birds I used to make by recycling used disposable bbq grills that I collected from Southsea common.

That all feels like a lifetime ago, and I think that a little of that feeling comes across in the music.

And I think I can say this here, I am more pleased and happy with some of the music that I've made in the last ten years, than I am with any of the pictures I've made in the last forty.

Monday, 29 June 2026

A Path From The Floating World

 

New track on the Bandcamp. An excellent remix by Rusty Sheriff of the most recent Caustic track.
As long as there is oxygen in my lungs, and music in my heart I will sing to the stars.
 
 
 **Side Note: :> "Instant Artwork"
 
The artwork was produced by working directly into a scanning scanner with a lit torch and a sheet of handy printed ephemera.
It took a few goes to get the composition, then edit it for uploading. Total time for the entire process, maybe 30 minutes - including uploading it to Bandcamp.

* No Photoshop (or equivalent)
* No AI

Saturday, 4 April 2026

To All Of My Friends In Portsmouth

Saturday 11.th April

I'll be having a quiet pint in the Northcote with some friends from about 7ish.

My last night out in Pompey before I leave you all in peace,
and my last chance to thank you all, in person, for the last 33 years.

If you can make it, even if it's just dropping in for a couple of minutes to make sure I'm
definitely going, I'll be happy (and sad!) to see you and say cheerio.

Thanks for some spectacular memories Pompey people.
I'll miss ya!

X
D

Tuesday, 3 February 2026

Saturday, 6 December 2025

On - Being Social

Rough notes - billowing around my head this morning.

There are approximately 5.2 Billion Social Media users among the Human population of Earth.
That is roughly 64% of the total global Human population.
Across the planet, the average time spent per day per person on Social Media is 2 hours and 23 minutes.

Social Media is not "anti-social", in spite of its serious deleterious effects on a significant proportion of its participants. In many ways it is the ultimate expression of Socialism - Being 'Social'.

It is also one of the most effective, accessible marketing tools ever invented.
It is a publishing medium par excellence. This needs re-iterating. Social media is a publishing platform - with highly toxic, highly radioactive levels of feedback. It is a publishing platform.
A gateway for those seeking attention, validation and sales.

§  This is the POV shift.  §  This is all I need it to be.  §

When your identity is not being constantly reflected - projected back [on] to you through the perverse lens of the screen, you regain more significant control of your Self. One's Identity is one of the most important, primary psychological foundations of Being Human - Homo Sapiens.

Control of Choice - Identity is Yours - it always was actually.
Privacy is not loneliness.
Silence is not emptiness.

Playing For the audience is not the same as Playing To the audience, in the same way as Identifying AS, is not the same as Being identified AS, or Identifying WITH.
Identity is a state of Being. Identity is Conscious Self Knowledge AND UnKnowledge - Curiosity - Who Am I? I Am Not You.

How wise is it to publish/broadcast/expose your UnKnowingness to the gaze of Humans everywhere and expect their response to be anything other than illogical?

The phrase "Whatever People Say I Am, That's What I'm Not" originates from the novel "Saturday Night and Sunday Morning" by Alan Sillitoe, published in 1958. The protagonist, Arthur Seaton, expresses a sentiment of individuality and defiance against others' perceptions of him.

A Performance is simply that. Alice Cooper is a character created and played by the performer Vincent Damon Furnier. Batman is a second level character created by the artist Bob Kane and the writer Bill Finger in the 1930's as the alter-ego of the fictional character Bruce Wayne.
Daniel Radcliffe is not Harry Potter. 

Refusing to reduce or diminish your existence to reels, shorts, highlights, captions, likes, comments - refusing to publish, to expose your Self to all the poisonous, carcinogenic feedback, does not mean Being Insignificant. Just because the world doesn't continuously acknowledge your presence, does not mean you don't exist. In fact, exactly the opposite of that is the Truth. You continue to exist IN Spite of the continuous lack of acknowledgement. And that is a very, very 'Good Thing'!



Monday, 17 November 2025

On - The Way To Work

Down by Asda carpark,
Over the roundabout,
Between the new housing estate,
And the dual carriageway,
On the last patch of green space
Behind the billboards advertising
Prime building land with planning permission in place.
Where the dog-walkers circle parade
While their charges defecate,
The trees hang heavy with ripening bags of shit.

Down by the gully
That runs through the site,
There's a movement in the long grass.
A badger, up late,
Rolls like an excited puppy.

Overcast grey dawn,
Low clouds and high tide
Meet before the open water
At the end of the bay.
No detail, no depth,
No sense of distance, space or time.
The scent of wet rocks.

The tide is high but turning and still.
The surface of the water smooth as chrome.
An odd bird bobbing low in the water
Among the regular Oystercatchers,
Geese and Gulls,
Has a hat on.

Same scene two days later,
Two Swans emerge from the mist.
The stuff of Arthurian legend.

Sparrowhawks (plural),
Plucking plumage in Waitrose carpark.
Scattered pigeon outside the front door.

Two Red Kites, low over the Big Yellow Storage,
Between the building college and the Holiday Inn.

Buzzard on the ground in the carpark at Selco,
Spooked, takes breakfast off into the shadows
Of the treeline to eat in peace
Behind the builder's knackered van.

Cormorants at high tide,
Skimming the creek at Portchester,
Doing that wing thing on the upturned carcasses of
Dead boats drowned in the mud.
Is it a Cormorant? Is it a Shag?

Purple Plover on the seafront at Southsea
On the concrete foreshore by the Castle.

Kessies over The George Inn
At the top of Portsdown hill,
Hounded by Crows.

Magpies roost with the Woodies at the back of 
The car door mirror factory.

A Rook bathing in the dew on the grass.

Today, I heard an Egret call.
It's not right for such an elegant bird
To sound like a Duck being choked.
Little Egrets, bloody Egrets everywhere!
Non! Je n'Egret rien!

Uncountable Foxes, tamed by their proximity to
Human detritus. Lulled into a sense of 
Tenuous security, cocky but cautious.

In the middle of Langstone harbour,
Slobbing about sunbathing on the sandbanks,
Grey Seals nobody sees without a telescope.

And I'm chatting on the phone at the side of the 
Square Tower, at the entrance to Portsmouth harbour,
Another Grey Seal casually bobs along in the grey-green surf below,
Watching me watching.

And, Grey Seal in the bay at Portchester Castle,
Just a few yards off the sea wall at Southampton Road.
Tides running out, but the Seal has a school of fish
Herded into the shallows. 
Surfaces now and then to slap one silly on the water
Before chewing on it like a dog with a bone.

Off the motorway embankment, under the trees,
On the gravel track by the fishing lake,
A scattering of wild Rabbits rummaging in the undergrowth.
A couple of Kestrels quarter the lake side.
Magpies, Moorhen, Coots and a flotilla of
Canada Geese populate the fringes of the reed beds.
Drift a little into open water.

A shocked Green Woodpecker yells startled green abuse,
Racing off to find another quiet spot to drum up lunch.
And a pair of Jays in pink and vivid blue
Add some spicy colour.

Down by Mountbatten, at Tipner Lake,
Occasional Godwits and Redshank turn up between
Hordes of Egrets. Oystercatchers, Gulls, and
Great Grey Heron. 
A pair of random Curlew stop by one evening.
Still there next morning, and a couple of days later
At Portchester bay.

One Friday in mid-November,
Eight Cormorants, a Black Backed Gull and a Grey Heron
Share the raft at Tipner.
Along the receding tide-line,
Tucked away among the Brent Geese,
A handful of Shelduck splap about in the mud,
Exotic and filthy.

Plucked a bewildered and bedraggled
Red Partridge from the sea at high tide
At Portchester bay. 
She was missing a dog-sized mouthful of feathers
From her back. No skin broken, she was shocked but alive.
We hid her away to recover. 

In the small brown bird ranks,
Dunnocks simply outnumber Sparrows,
Now rare in our gardens and dwindling to extinction
While their niche is filled by,
Well, other small brown birds.

A swarm of Wagtails
Flitter, picking tidbits in the lurid algae-green
Pebbles at the shoreline as the tide runs away.
Never more than a foot away from the other,
A pair suddenly tear away into an aerial display
Of rollercoaster swoops and dime-turns, 
Skater eights and vertical rocket launches
That put the Swifts to shame.

Blue Tits and Goldcrests bring the glitter,
Robins bully and berate
Blackbirds busy at the break of dawn.
Starlings shimmer in everything they do.
Their whole existence is a world of shimmering,
Song, flight, plumage and antics.

Parakeets, wild on Farlington marshes.
All Robin Hood green with radishes for noses.

Still on Farlington marshes, a Barn Owl
Floats across a backdrop of cattle in hazy sunlight
And vanishes in a puff of Hawthorn.

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I've been commuting to work for many years. I've had many conversations in that time about the things that I've seen and encountered en route, through urban and rural landscapes - largely of the "What do you even look at?"

So this is a poem about my failed attempts to spot wildlife in the kinds of 'pure', natural habitats you see on 'Spring/Autumnwatch' and elsewhere on the telly. It started off being about wildlife without the rose tinted long lenses, in built-up, urban, industrial landscapes, in closer proximity with us than we often realise, often so close that the great majority of us barely register it. Over time, I think it has changed somewhat. Evolved, you might say.

This piece is by no means 'finished'. It grows each time I see something extraordinary or beautiful on the commute from home to work each day. I cycle everywhere, though I'm not one of those 'Lycra Princesses' with all the gear, pretending I'm in the Tour de France everyday. I'm a cruiser, a meanderer. I'm interested in the texture of the journey. I have no desire to reduce it to a snap, nor to isolate myself from the experience plugged in to any artificial distraction. I want to exist in and experience the living world, not the dead world of the digitally dull, virtually non-existent. Can't touch it, can't feel it, don't know if it's real or fake. In the words of Robin Williams/Adrian Cronauer in 'Good Morning Vietnam', "What's the weather like today? You got a window, open it!" Well, now it's me saying, "You got eyeballs and a mind! Open 'em!"

Sunday, 5 October 2025

On - Big Rain

I'm no Shelley, Keats or Byron,
No Hughes or Cooper-Clarke.
Just a speck on a spectrum.
The boy with the cardboard heart.
So I'll do this my way,
Be my own beacon in the dark.

Unstable as Uranium,
Gonna crack your cranium,
Put a short circuit in your brainium.
'Cos I'm firing on all cylinders.
Inspirin', it's tirin' and my busy fingers are dyin'
And I'm sick of fucking tryin'.

Collecting the uncollectable,
Forgetting the unforgettable,
Repeating the unrepeatable.
Every statement of status a state of explicit complicity
That believes in itself so seriously.

And the rain falls like suffering,
And suffering is truth
And it's a big, big rain
On a small, small town.
It's a big, big rain
On a small, small town.

You came like a crack in the ice.
Not who you said you were.
You wore a mask of integrity.
Your painted eyes, bitter lies,
Tattooed on your inner thighs.

You needed my dreams manifest,
The better to beat me with.
Pierced in the heart so your
Golden thread could drag me around,
Lead the parade, show me off.
Your broken prize from the merry-go-round.

You burned your brand on my arse.
Another tattooed barcode,
Kissing up to this paranoid farce.

And the rain falls like suffering,
And suffering is truth
And it's a big, big rain
On a small, small town.
It's a big, big rain
On a small, small town.

They say walking is the fine art
Of falling without crashing.
Well I started late 
And stumbled every step of the way.
But I threw myself wilfully,
Into the abyss of obscurity,
Laughing and screaming like a madman,
At the on-coming rush of anonimity.

And if every landscape is a condition of the soul,
Then I am a man of mountainous shadows,
Great, dark forests shrouded in the depths
Of Winter clouds.

Where the rain falls like suffering,
And suffering is truth
And it's a big, big rain
On a small, small town.
It's a big, big rain
On a small, small town.

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Another piece written entire by recital on my cycle commute to work each morning over several weeks in 2021?-2022? I like to ride along and recite out loud because it gives me a much better, clearer understanding of the "feel" of the words. I also find it easier than trying to just 'think' them in my head. Hearing the lines out loud in the open, somehow is just easier for me to remember them. Yeah, I know... I only actually wrote them down and editted them later, once they were more or less 'completed' by recital.